“I have no control over what people think of me but I have 100% control of what I think of myself, and that is so important. And not just about your body, but so many ways of confidence. You’re constantly learning how to be confident, aren’t you? You’re constantly reprogramming yourself.”—Beth Ditto (via shakethecobwebs)
Waves of emotions crash down on me like the uproar of a storm. All around are these ups & downs.. One day & not tomorrow, gone one moment & here in the next, it’s a cycle, a pattern..a game.
Well I’m tired of the shame. I’m tired of trying and fighting. No one gets it. I don’t even know myself. I keep believing yet still I struggle. It’s like I scream so loud but no one hears. My voice evaporates in thin air, like I never spoke..like I was never there. But I am ! I’m here. I feel & I love & I hurt. Where’s the hope & the faith to continue on? I don’t know how much longer I can be this strong.
At times I’m okay but then the contentness goes away. Where are you at when I’m hurting the most? Where do you go..? It’s like I’m helplessly in love with a ghost. <3
you weren’t supposed to change this much. you weren’t supposed to change at all, really. should have just stuck to what mom and dad told you, huh and done your homework, studied, tested. should have turned down all those shopping trips. shouldn’t have tried to be what you weren’t. why’d you go and…
I told myself not to quit. & I didn't. Just gotta keep on goin.
I worked out for 30 minutes on the bicycle machine thing..& i have for the past 3 days. I forgot how good working out makes me feeeeel. (: I want to be fit & healthy..I know my body is still changing but I can still try try again to become a better me, & I shall. <3
Me after exercising. Baggy clothes, but still. oh & Eeyore is awesome. (:..& my brother’s monster truck thing is on the counter.hah..just felt like uploadin this.